“Let it go.” These were the words I heard being gently whispered to my heart as I wrestled with an old demon one more time. Not only was I wrestling with an old demon, I was wrestling with one that didn’t belong to me in the first place. I had picked up an offense that belonged to another. I let doubt and insecurity invade my thoughts and got a little too carried away in my quest for righting a wrong that wasn’t mine.
Honestly, I had been a little too comfortable wallowing in this misery. I had allowed a lie from the enemy to root itself so deeply that I though it just belonged there, deep in my psyche. But the truth is that it didn’t belong there. I finally realized this when one day I could think of nothing else and I felt physically ill. It had finally happened. The poison I had been drinking in hopes of harming another was slowly killing me.
It was time to change.
I had been praying about this situation for quite some time but had failed to truly relinquish it. I wanted to hold just a little piece back so I felt like I was still in control. But that day, the day the poison became too strong, I was ready for it to be over. So I prayed again, in earnest, that God would remove this burden. I wanted nothing more to do with it. So, its gone. Will it rear it’s ugly head again? It may try, but by the grace of God, it will not reside in the sacred spaces reserved for His mercy.
Psalm 51:10 10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
(Originally posted on stuffsharisays.BlogSpot.com on 9/19/2013)